Saturday, November 27, 2010 @ 3:17 PM
unhappy.i wished this year could end fast.
end of year reflection:
seemed so long since i did this refection thingy. i realise this is one of the toughest year i had gone through. loved ones are doing okay, no big issues. just a few ups and downs.. but there're fine.
concentration is a hard thing to do. i really have to learn to take control of myself. i enjoy too much this year, really.
1) too dependent
2) too lazy
3) became too fat
4) too ignorant
5) too stupid.
YES! became too dumb. i haven been studying. i wanted to start but.. i waited for tomorrow and.. tomorrow never come.
why why why? why have i change to this form??
2 days later, my last A level paper.
and i have done nothing, yes, NOTHING about it.
why? i dont know. my brain just doesnt want to think.
i feel that i'm like an angry machine or a crying machine.
at times, a crazy (as in lunatic) machine, who goes around being mad at people for no reason.
Not that my irregular period cause me to be like this.
just that i'm not satisfied in what i'm doing now.
i chose this path, this route..
am i regretting?
oh no!. no no no.. this route is just a test.
i really have to start thinking about what i want. really want.
:( i miss my old me.